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rM EFTA02731393 EFTA02731394 So sorry Jeffrey these things happen when your body had never been given time to properly heal! So it came out in the toilet and I didnt know what to do so I just flushed the tiny little fetus. You have made me numb and I hate you for this! I hope I never have to see you again! I am not your personal incubator! where is the baby! where is Ghislaine!!! EFTA02731395 SSR'1EFE.TEERNSAPNNNoR 00RJ FR1V18TI C)HP \,,,JE\iu lk•L-2 4 g s &\\lifoliPRvEL 31 01N* . Il1 EljAtpiiLHA . .., „., `0, •. 1 - . '"..-ii 1 Clk0:4 - \J \-V 'r- \ .E A b T ,-1 Tsi I\ rm..-it', 1 o L To \-..q.,ut it 141 gE4--11 .4. _,,, •'' TbS 1%,4,1„- C t 1 i_ ItiT SN 000,1s iAJI-It. ITEtliyV e,4% v.V. 4. 0` 110P: V\VMDPc: A p, E t dyR Hi il* °P NVR E0 ) 1 No ;\.I P IU A t E 'el \1411S 0 AAA V14 il T .9 ES1,11—.r. 1 t OT 'K. NUT i A i4i4 IK 1 G—‘1.1 f!!' \OP01,1 E t S IA '3 b\W-E E HSAO . 0 EFTA02731396 BLEND IN! HATE THIS CITY! EFTA02731397 On Misery's Trail The toll of reporting on human anguish_ EFTA02731398 1961 I blamed her for everything, but she didn't answer. I couldn't understand her stupid behavior! When I hit her she held still, like a true pacifist. Then I realized what she wanted was for me to love her: She began to warm up, and I saw her advantages. Without me, she wouldn't exist, so of course she was grateful. I gave her a soul, I bloomed out of her as a rose Blooms out of a vase of not very valuable porcelain, And it was I who attracted everybody's attention, Not her whiteness and beauty, as I had at first supposed. I patronized her a little, and she lapped it up— You could tell almost at once she had a slave vality. etgel, I didn't mind her waiting on me, and sh it. O In the morning she woke me early, re in he From her amazingly white torso, a ldn' fte ut notice Her tidiness and her calmness She humored my weakness 1 Holding my bones in plat d properly. In time our relationshi She stopped fitti os and seemed offish. I felt her criti • e in o herself, As if my hab• o ende. some way. She let in the fts me more and more absent-minded. And my skin itch aked away in soft pieces Simply beca Then I saw t troublewas: she thought she was immortal. ;t ed after me so badly. She wa t leave me, she thought she was superior, And I'd Xeen keeping her in the dark, and she was resentful— Wasting her days waiting on a half-corpse! And secretly she began to hope I'd die. Then she could cover my mouth and eyes, cover me entirely, And wear my painted face the way a mummy-case Wears the face of a pharaoh, though it's made of mud and water. I wasn't in any position to get rid of her. She'd supported me for so long I was quite limp — I had even forgotten how to walk or sit, EFTA02731399 Background photo of a courtroom with words (and you should never be here alone" HE SHOULD! EFTA02731400 OUR STAND EFTA02731401 Through a Child's Eyes "What I wanted was ... a place where dreams did not stop at dawn." PROTECT THE VANISHING tH11-hRtN Flashback s I won't let pain keep me fronkt104 \/- - O "In the Danger Zone -C° o \_\ •° EFTA02731402 Background photos of New York City and quote "Who could have predicted this?" I should have! So sad this city could be beautiful if it werent filled with monsters. The blood from Leon is no longer there. [clipping: National Geographic June 2004] EFTA02731403 SSa\Q5.‘10V0bo“ --ir 0Qkk. ckc, C..O\1.\“ Y(?\1,1\c(“\kO"-e,\0 Lo vno, '‘\\"(\oSQS \'`00(Wf\S'2'05C 1/2-te. vtr NAT. -MAE OGRAPIII! • JUNF Cm rk balts the northward match of a rchllectural glads. Setting Ms camera at er .4:ed Central Park West. the photographer made this riek, talmen) lookIng to the southeast. the el pholographed at night (below), the pad, night ligfits dance and trombi° like profs Fire. Betond tbc park, etched In lire against noem., skie, tisel the great city. J. ed Me a sultan's palace oe a gata nipt. EFTA02731404 Tomorrow is the halfway ultrasound for Jeffrey. This one stuck. After they took the first baby who survived and the early miscarriage I think it was called I no longer feel like a person but a vessel. Will they take this one too? Who has the first one? Where did Ghislaine go. She is never around. I cant let myself get attached. I am not old or mature enough or even in the place to have baby thetS4Id be responsible for. I am not even able to focus on anything other than hi ifirSt; agao ic I had to go to eating disorder treatment prior to beesi thOtion again and missed the entire fall semester of school. A 0 t- k I am so very exhausted. IN/ , / Will I ever be free? 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